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Releasing Guilt (3.17.17)

Disclaimer: This article is intended for mature audiences age 16+.

I work with energy from the moon to assist me in manifesting dreams (new moons) and releasing energies that I no longer want in my life (full moons). Following are the thoughts and feelings that surfaced into my consciousness during the full moon on March 12, 2017.

Full Moon Release

Looked at the full moon outside my bedroom window at 5 AM with the clouds rolling in front of it and made statements about releasing guilt associated with my sexual abuse.

Received the following songs during the night:
“Moonshadow” by Cat Stevens
“Bloody Mary” by Lady Gaga
“Cake by the Ocean” by DNCE.

Following are notes from the work that I did during my morning walk:

I release all guilt about my father shaming me to put my dress down and cover my underpants while I was sitting in a chair at the barbershop while he was getting a haircut. (I may have been 4 years old. I was wearing a dress but sitting sort of like a frog. Apparently my white underpants were on full display.)

I release all guilt surrounding my father scolding me about pulling my pants down showing my private parts to my male friends in the neighborhood. (I was approximately 5 years old. Our little group of friends were all flashing each other our private parts and got busted and shut down. There was no discussion or explanation about this inappropriate childhood behavior, just don’t ever do that again and shame, shame, shame. I was in our side yard.)

I release all guilt surrounding my clitoris, my vagina, my vulva, my labia, my vulva.

I release all guilt and shame from uncle Tommy saying, “Look! She has on a training bra!” right in front of my immediate family members.

I release all guilt and shame from grandaddy Young saying, “Hey, you have on a cow halter (training bra).” (Grandaddy Young was hard of hearing and barely spoke when he was sober. This was a sober statement.)

I release all guilt and shame from Stefan Bunsavage (a new boy in my 5th grade class)telling me, “You don’t need a bra.”

I release all guilt associated with my breasts, my big tits, my jugs, my boobs.

I release all guilt associated with my ass.

I thank God for my private parts that make me a woman – that make me a female. I thank God for my voluptuous breasts, my beautiful pussy, my beautiful ass, I thank God for my entire body not just my private parts. I thank God for my femininity. I thank God for my womanhood. I thank God for my being. I thank God for my heart. I thank God for my brain. I thank God for my abilities.

I am a woman. I am proud to be a woman. I am proud to be a female. I am proud to be a mother. I am proud to be a wife. I am proud to be myself. I am more than just a bunch of sexual parts. I am more than just a woman with big tits and long legs. I am a whole person. I reclaim all of the wounded aspects of myself from childhood up until now and reclaim my entire being. I release all guilt and shame associated with being a female in this lifetime. I am whole. I am complete. I am powerful. I am woman. Hear me ROAR.