The information contained in this article is for mature audiences. You have to figure out for yourself what that note of caution means. I was sexually abused by my father at age 8. I was a child. The topic and experience of sex was forced onto me against my will when I was in the 3rd grade. I didn’t have a choice as to whether or not I wanted to learn and discuss this foreign topic. My intention through this writing is to heal myself and to help others. These are the Nitty Gritty details of what sexual abuse looks and feels like. I’m not an expert. This is my experience.
I don’t know when my father first forced oral sex on me. I had to have been 8 or 9 years old. I have no memory of it. I cannot imagine how horrified and terrified that I felt during this experience. If I were to imagine it, it seems as though I would have been completely freaked out. I would have probably thought, “WHAT?!? Why are you putting your tongue on my ???, Dad? That’s gross!!! Ewww! That’s dirty. Pee pee comes out of there.” I probably wanted to die.